Aim.

i validate myself in my rhythmic, non-semantic use of word

i am ia m iam i am i am iam i am iam iam i ami am ia mi ami am i am i am i am i am i am i am

the sounds and pressing of the key are my wings in way, they are my means to move. I soothe, and allow for intangible digestion this way

i am iam iam iam iam iam iamm iam iam iam iam iam iam iam iam iam i am iam iam iam iam iam iam iam iam iam iam iam iam iam iam iam iam iam iam iam aim a

i notice the experience of the imaginary outsider's judgment/punishment for the oddity of moving in this way. Punishment for doing what's right and natural for me and my own internal world

i am i am iam iam iam iam

i notice the urge to edit. i assure myself to edit sparingly only for the means of bridging. only for the means for clearer communication but careful not to "perfect" the look of my process

i am ia,m iam i am i am i am iam iam iam iam iam iam iam iam iam iam iam iam iam iam iam iam iam iam iam iam iam iam ia

Sometimes the easiest means to clean, is repetition.

"stereotypy".

Repeating a word over and over and over in my head, reepeating an action over and over. lulling, and allowing for cleaning, allowing for digestion.

not about the semantics, not about the interpretation behind the words or the "functional" (common and conditioned) use of objects and actions.

primal, rhythmic, natural, free-ing.

i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i ai. i am i am ia m

When i dont know. when my mind is a feelings soup, or a soup of subtle energies, mixes of grey and muted colors. i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am

Repetition, sensory soothing, is my vehicle to awakening.

when my internal world, my internal language is behind concepts. When its so subtle and ephemeral and ever-changing.

when i cant grab anything as if it were water in my hands.

i am iam iam i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i

i find comfort in mistakes, and weirdness, and humanness. grammatical "errors".

relationship with the gritty, the primal, the primitive, the 'unkempt'

i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i ai i am i am i am i am i am i am i am i a. iam i ma i i iam iam. aim ai i am

Aim.