An expression on Meaning-Deafness

I've struggled to grasp regular words and things

But poetry and ancient text infuses into my heart and makes me tickle

with a heavenly buzz from the deepest core of my being.

I find myself still and buffering as I read and watch the discussion of

worldly concepts.

I used to know what u were talking about

Now it's just words but I don't feel the meat of what it means anvmore.

I die many deaths over and over again, and my terrain becomes

incompatible to what once was

Meaning-deafness, you have drawn out a sensation of Cold, stark

isolation in me. When the English language or any language can't reach

me

When I write, like now. It's not long before I enter the everything

nothingness warp and I don't remember what I was trying to convey. Nor

do I want to exert myself to